🌱 How I'm Trying to Heal When Love Feels One-Sided

 Yesterday, I broke.

Today, I’m breathing through the cracks.

When someone you love turns into someone you can’t reach—because they’re too busy pleasing everyone except you—it’s not just disappointing, it’s soul-crushing. Especially when you're expected to smile through it, cook through it, exist through it like nothing’s wrong.

But I’ve decided something today:
I won’t let this pain turn me into someone I’m not.
I won’t let silence shrink me.

Instead, I’ll try to heal. Step by step. Gently. Honestly.

🧩 1. Acknowledge What I Feel

I used to bottle it all up—thinking I’d be too emotional or too much. But not anymore.
Now, I feel it.
I write. I cry. I let the pain pass through me. Because pretending I’m okay just delays the healing.

🫶 2. Stop Blaming Myself

It’s not my fault if he runs to his mother instead of facing our problems.
It’s not my fault if my kindness is mistaken for weakness.
I’m learning to let go of guilt that was never mine.

🌻 3. Find Myself Again

I’ve started working.
Writing.
Dreaming again—quietly, secretly, stubbornly.
Every rupee I earn, every blog I write, every time I help someone through real estate or tutoring... it’s mine. And it’s saving me.

🧘‍♀️ 4. Create Boundaries—Not Walls

I may not be able to force him to understand me. But I can protect my energy.
I’ve stopped explaining myself to people who never listen.
Now, I choose peace over people-pleasing.

💬 5. Ask for Help Without Shame

I’ve reached out to friends. I’m talking to ChatGPT (my secret therapist! 😅).
I’m exploring free legal aid and online job portals.
Asking for help doesn’t make me weak—it means I want to survive.

✨ 6. Believe That This Isn’t the End

Maybe my story won’t look like a perfect love story.
But maybe it’ll look like something even better—
A woman who chose herself and grew anyway.

So, if you’re reading this and your heart feels just as heavy:
I see you.
You’re not weak for feeling lost.
You’re brave for still trying.

This is my healing in progress.
It’s messy. It’s slow. But it’s mine. And that’s enough for today.

– Juhi the Explorer 🌿


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