Juhi The Explorer

  There are days that don’t just pass—they pierce you silently. Yesterday was one of them. I woke up with a weight on my chest that had no name, no sound, and yet it screamed. A kind of heaviness that you can’t explain to anyone without them brushing it off as “mood swings” or “overthinking.” But this wasn’t just overthinking. This was pain. Real, raw, and quiet. Sometimes, love feels more like a competition. Between  me  and  his mother. Between  my tears  and  his silence. Between the  partner I hoped for  and the  stranger I live with. He wasn’t cruel. He wasn’t loud. He was just... absent. Emotionally checked out. Always running to his “Maa” for every little thing—decisions, doubts, drama. I felt invisible in the room where I was supposed to be his equal. I didn’t want to be the villain in a mother-son bond. I just wanted a little space in his heart that was  mine —not shared, not borrowed, just mine. But yesterday made it clear...

 Yesterday, I broke. Today, I’m breathing through the cracks. When someone you love turns into someone you can’t reach—because they’re too busy pleasing everyone  except you —it’s not just disappointing, it’s soul-crushing. Especially when you're expected to smile through it, cook through it,  exist through it  like nothing’s wrong. But I’ve decided something today: I won’t let this pain turn me into someone I’m not. I won’t let silence shrink me. Instead, I’ll try to heal. Step by step. Gently. Honestly. 🧩 1. Acknowledge What I Feel I used to bottle it all up—thinking I’d be  too emotional  or  too much.  But not anymore. Now, I  feel  it. I write. I cry. I let the pain pass through me. Because pretending I’m okay just delays the healing. 🫶 2. Stop Blaming Myself It’s not my fault if he runs to his mother instead of facing our problems. It’s not my fault if my kindness is mistaken for weakness. I’m learning to let go of guilt that was...

   A journey of born blessings, breaking barriers, and building a life from scratch I wasn’t born in a hospital. I wasn’t even born in a town. I was born in a train, somewhere near Narsinghpur, Madhya Pradesh , between  Kalyan and Allahabad  — on November 7, 1992. That speeding train didn’t just carry a tiny baby into the world — it carried a story that’s still unfolding today. Raised in the lively lanes of  Kalyan, Mumbai , my life always moved with the rhythm of dreams. From cycling through childhood memories to standing tall with a  B.E. in Civil Engineering , I thought I had it all mapped out. But life, as it loves to do, had its own blueprints. 👩‍💻 From Engineering to Educating Despite earning my degree, stepping into a “career” wasn’t as straight as my AutoCAD drawings and Revit.  I found myself drawn to teaching  — not just because I could, but because I  cared . I wasn’t just explaining equations; I was nurturing confidence. I wasn’...

  Small Wins, Big Smiles — Meri Roz ki Choti Khushi By Juhi — The Daily Dose of Life Har din perfect nahi hota. Kayi baar kuch  extraordinary  nahi hota. Bas ek normal sa din hota hai — jisme thoda peace hota hai, thoda self-time aur thoda comfort. Aaj subah I woke up on time. Sabse pehle bed set kiya — itna basic sa step, but it felt like I was in control. Chai banayi, aur bina phone uthaye window ke paas baith gayi. Bahar tree leaves hil rahe the, birds ki awaaz aa rahi thi. Kuch kaam kiye — bina pressure ke. Thoda fold, thoda clean. Kahi moment pe, bas khud se bola — “You’re doing fine. Itna bhi bura nahi chal raha.” Hume lagta hai life tab achhi hoti hai jab kuch bada ho — Lekin asli calm toh in choti wins mein chhupa hota hai. Jab tum khud ke liye ek simple moment create kar leti ho — bina kisi effort ke. ☀️ Aaj ki Meri Daily Dose: Subah se overthink nahi kiya Apne space ko thoda better banaya Aur khud ko lightly hug kiya — bina reason ke 💭 Tumhare liye ek simple sa...

  I Smiled… But Not From the Inside By Juhi — Juhi The Explorer Aaj ka din normal tha. Subah uthi, routine follow kiya. Chai banayi, kaam ki list banayi, thoda housework bhi ho gaya. Face pe smile bhi thi — jo log dekhte hai. Lekin pata nahi kyu,  andar  se kuch feel nahi ho raha tha. Sab theek hai, par  main nahi theek hoon . Kabhi kabhi lagta hai jaise sab kuch karte hue bhi main missing hoon. Main present hoon, par  actually nahi hoon . I talk, I laugh, I react — par woh sab surface pe hota hai. Andar koi khamoshi hai jo har roz zyada gehri ho rahi hai. Aaj ek pal ke liye sab kuch side mein rakha… Window ke paas jaake khud से पूछा — “Tu theek hai?” Koi jawaab nahi mila. Sirf thodi thakan thi, thoda khud se disappoint feel hua. Par ek achhi baat ye thi — maine  poocha . Apne aap se. And that matters. ☀️ Aaj ki Meri Daily Dose: Apne emotion ko ignore nahi kiya Khud ko accept kiya bina explanation ke Aur thoda space diya — just to  feel , without prete...