I Smiled… But Not From the Inside

 I Smiled… But Not From the Inside

By Juhi — Juhi The Explorer




Aaj ka din normal tha.
Subah uthi, routine follow kiya. Chai banayi, kaam ki list banayi, thoda housework bhi ho gaya.
Face pe smile bhi thi — jo log dekhte hai.
Lekin pata nahi kyu, andar se kuch feel nahi ho raha tha.

Sab theek hai, par main nahi theek hoon.
Kabhi kabhi lagta hai jaise sab kuch karte hue bhi main missing hoon.
Main present hoon, par actually nahi hoon.

I talk, I laugh, I react — par woh sab surface pe hota hai.
Andar koi khamoshi hai jo har roz zyada gehri ho rahi hai.

Aaj ek pal ke liye sab kuch side mein rakha…
Window ke paas jaake khud से पूछा —
“Tu theek hai?”

Koi jawaab nahi mila.
Sirf thodi thakan thi, thoda khud se disappoint feel hua.
Par ek achhi baat ye thi — maine poocha.
Apne aap se.
And that matters.

☀️ Aaj ki Meri Daily Dose:

  • Apne emotion ko ignore nahi kiya

  • Khud ko accept kiya bina explanation ke

  • Aur thoda space diya — just to feel, without pretending

💭 Tumhare liye ek honest question:
Kabhi aisa laga hai ki sab theek dikh raha hai, par feel nahi ho raha?
Agar haan — toh please yaad rakhna, tum akeli nahi ho.
Bina reason ke udasi bhi valid hoti hai.
Kuch kehna chaaho toh likh dena — main sun rahi hoon 🤍

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